Hope

It has been awhile since I have posted.  I have been going through a lot here lately and just haven't had the energy to post anything remotely interesting.  My Papaw passed away and I have been having a hard time dealing with it.  I am so glad that God has blessed me with the family and husband that I have.  Without all of them I would have gone insane.  The only thing keeping me sane at this point in time is the fact that I know one day when it is my turn to go to Heaven I will see my Papaw and his smiling face again. 

I am so glad that God put my husband into my life.  He has helped me learn so much about myself and I couldn't make it through life without him.  He is the best partner in life I could have ever asked for and I know that he will make the greatest dad too.  He has comforted and helped me so much.  I know he cares because when I hurt he hurts and I can tell that it pains him to see me like this.  He tries so hard to make everything easy for me.  I love him so much and just want to thank him for being there even if giving me a hug and a kiss is the only thing he can do to ease my pain at the moment. 

I know in time that the pain will get easier to bare but until then I thank God he has given me this wonderful man to help hold me when all I really want to do right now is give up.  I also thank God for my family especially my mom and dad they have taught me so much and they have helped me to stay strong through this whole process.  We all have to stay strong for each other even though it is the hardest thing on the planet to do right now. I love you all and I'm so very thankful for you. 

The one verse that keeps me going right now is,  "but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." (Isaiah 40:31)

I know for a fact that Papaw is in Heaven right now and he is not out of breath, he walks without his cane, he can run down those streets of gold, and he is probably thinking, "You silly girl, Papaw is just fine."

P.S. I love my family.

Papaw my hero.

 

This man right here is one of my heroes.  This is my Papaw, he is my father's daddy.  He was laid to rest on Saturday and left this world to be in Heaven on January 25th 2012.  It happened so fast and no one was expecting it to happen.  I find it hard to believe.  I just didn't think I would ever have to attend his funeral.  When you are little you assume that everyone will just live forever.  He is going to live forever but just not on this earth.  I find comfort in knowing that he is in Heaven and is no longer in pain.  One of these days it will be my turn and I will see him again but until then I have one awesome guardian angel.  My Mamaw (Papaws wife)  is one tough lady.  I do not know how she is so strong.  They were first loves and had been married for 55 years.  She lost her best friend but is staying strong for all of us as we are for her.  My grandparents are like parents to me they took care of us just as much as my parents did.  I am the baby of eight grandchildren so I got away with a lot of stuff that no one else did.  I will always be their baby.  I miss him so much and would love to just here his voice one more time.  That beautiful laugh he had or those sarcastic jokes that came out of no where.  My Papaw always told us to go chase some rabbits.  We would run out the door and do just that.  Although we never really caught much we sure tried.  So Papaw send me some rabbits to chase.  I love you so much.

P.S. Forever Chasing Rabbits.